Saturday - 27th June 2026
Hello again! It’s been a while.
A little more than a year ago I stopped maintaining my blog to gleefully slide into weed-induced psychosis. Reading back through the old posts, I can now see how I wrestle for control, eventually give up and pivot to obsessing about my creative process, desperately avoiding the plastic-bottle-bong in the room.
Getting out of that psychosis was a painful process. I feel like I lost months to paralysis, to all the emotions that the drug had been supressing and to coming to grips with how far from myself I’d gotten.
Somehow I managed to meaningfully contribute to the Mosa Lina 2nd Layer Update and FALLSTRUKTUR before relapsing.
Now, almost one year and a couple of relapses later, I’ve been clean & sober for longer than I’ve ever been since turning 15. I’m very proud of that and feel pretty good.
Work on NEXT GAME has been ramping up steadily for the last few months. We should be able to announce it soon. The Mosa Lina money is defenitely running out now & there’s flashes of anxiety about money again.
If NEXT GAME fails financially it would be a pity, but I reckon I’d have enough ressources left to do one last commercially viable project before being completely broke.
Besides that, I’ve also been working hard on trusting the process, on looking into the future without fear. Something will work out. It always has in the past. Survivorship-bias-mentality, basically :)
But yes. Blogposts.
Last time I wrote these things I had a clear agenda, I wanted to write myself into productivity again. That did not work, so now I guess I’ll just push myself a little bit to write about whatever comes to mind, to see if one of the big essays I’ve been wanting to tackle for years now rears its head.
Let’s see what happens :)